Gardening to Aid With Anxiety & Depression.

Since moving house I have loved spending time in the garden; I have found that it really helps my mood (unless Leo is busy digging holes in the already struggling lawn).  I can feel super stressed but just going outside to sweep up some leaves or do a bit of weeding can help reduce my anxiety and stress levels.

Not having a garden was always a down side to living in London.  Some of the flats I lived in had a balcony or some sort of outside space, however this was no substitute and whenever we visited our friends, the Saunders Family, I would love being in their garden and it always made me long for one of my own, and now I have it….. wooohoooo!!!

As Kim and I are renting the house there is a limit to what we can do, however we have already achieved a lot when you consider the state it was in when we moved in.  A lot of pruning and trips to the recycling centre later, and now it’s a space that we all love to be in, especially Leo. Read more

Time to Set Some Serious Goals

One of my biggest problems has been feeling lost, and having a distinct lack of direction.  I have ideas, and know what I would like to do, but it all feels so far away and overwhelming.

I have decided that I need to try and set some goals that I can focus my mind to working towards.

“If my mind can conceive it, and my heart can believe it, then I can achieve it.”  

                                                                                                             – Muhammad Ali

One trigger for my anxiety is time, and feeling that I never have enough time to do everything, so I am going to try and keep these goals fairly open to start with and see how I go. Read more

Time to Science the S**t out of this.

Science was never my strong point at school, and I wouldn’t say that it has been something I have been interested in since I left school; so, if you’d told me that I would be enjoying learning about some of the science behind Anxiety, Depression and Addiction, I would have laughed and shrugged it off as nonsense.

“So in the face of overwhelming odds, I’m left with only one option.  I’m going to have to science the s**t out of this.”The Martian

When I had my first panic attack I honestly believed that something had snapped in my brain (I told you I wasn’t much of a scientist); all I remember was feeling scared and broken.  During the early stages of my illness I had no idea what was going on, all I knew was that the stresses at work were causing it.

My learning started when I attended CBT through the NHS.  My therapist gave me some booklets that contained some really useful information on the basics of what was going on in my head and body, but this information only covered the tip of the iceberg. Read more

Finding Something to Hold on to – The Healing Power of Words.

I recently read ‘Black Rainbow’ by Rachel Kelly, which is the incredible journey of her struggle with depression.

The main focus of the book is about how Rachel’s love of poetry gave her the solace she needed during the darkest of times, and how these words gave her the inner strength to deal with her depression, and eventually recover.

Poetry and prayer proved a valuable tool for Rachel’s family; her mother was also passionate about words and she was able to use these to help Rachel: Read more

A Journey Out of the Darkness – Finding My ‘Big Why’!

In my current situation I have really struggled to see the light at the end of the tunnel, let alone reach it.  Since having anxiety and depression, I have felt very isolated from the world, and I lost my direction in life.

“Long is the way and hard, that out of hell leads up to the light.”

      John Milton – Paradise Lost

In her ‘Make Peace with Money’ course, Kim begins by asking people to decide on their ‘Big Why’.  The ‘Big Why’ is all about finding what you are truly passionate about, and what you really what to achieve.

I have recently been thinking about my ‘Big Why’, and realised that it involves taking a giant step away from my old life, and more importantly, allowing myself to make this step. Read more