Depression and Self Blame.

What would you say if I told you that Life Loves You and the Universe wants the Best for You?

You might think I really have lost my mind, and that I’m talking a load of rubbish.

During my struggle with anxiety and depression, I would have said that the world was against me I hated myself and the universe couldn’t care less about me.

Self blame and self loathing are a big problem that people with depression have to battle, this generally stems from the feelings of helplessness and hopelessness, and a general feeling of having no control in your life. Read more

Hiding Under a Hat.

One of my greatest fears when I was in the deepest depths of anxiety and panic was leaving the flat and walking up my local High Street; there were a number of challenges that I faced when doing this, which were:

  • I struggled to be around a large number of people.
  • Busy surroundings and noise made me disorientated.
  • I was afraid of bumping into someone I knew.

The third point may sound strange to some of you, and it has probably been one of the hardest things to get my head around, let alone try and explain to other people, especially my friends.  It wasn’t because I didn’t like them anymore; it was a case that I wanted to hide away, almost become anonymous. Read more

Suicide and Depression.

This is probably the most difficult blog to write, because it deals with the darkest side of mental health, which is suicide.

I wrote it a while ago, but was not sure when to post it.

Last night Kim and I watched ‘Zoe’s Hardest Road Home’, the BBC/Sports Relief documentary which charted Zoe Ball’s journey of cycling 350 miles from Blackpool to Brighton in order to raise money and awareness of mental health issues.

Zoe’s experience with mental health came when her boyfriend Billy Yates (who suffered from depression) committed suicide.  The documentary was an emotional watch, especially when Zoe described the last time she saw Billy. Read more

Finding Something to Hold on to – The Healing Power of Words.

I recently read ‘Black Rainbow’ by Rachel Kelly, which is the incredible journey of her struggle with depression.

The main focus of the book is about how Rachel’s love of poetry gave her the solace she needed during the darkest of times, and how these words gave her the inner strength to deal with her depression, and eventually recover.

Poetry and prayer proved a valuable tool for Rachel’s family; her mother was also passionate about words and she was able to use these to help Rachel: Read more

Chris Bertish – When you Panic, Don’t Panic.

One of the most extreme examples of dealing with panic that I have read about comes from Chris Bertish.  It is not an obvious source of inspiration, because (as far as I know) Chris does not suffer from anxiety and depression.

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“When you panic, don’t panic!”

Chris is an amazing individual; not only is he a big wave surfer (he won the 2010 Mavericks Big Wave Invitational) and adventurer, he is an inspirational figure who shows that with courage and determination you can achieve your dreams.

Putting himself in what only can be described as life threatening situations (on purpose); Chris has had to learn how to control panic. Read more